What is going on here?
People are still: tired, cold, burnt-out, lonely, stressed, bored, stuck and unmotivated. Â Kids. Â Especially teens. Â But they're back at school. Â Why OH Why is this holiday season turning out to be like many others - damp, lackluster and downright dreadful. Â It's not the weather.
CEOs made 399% more than workers in the past few years. Â Think about that. Â So the rest of us are just working, shopping, spending, staying home, skipping much needed vacations, getting COVID and crying ourselves to sleep. Â What is wrong with this picture? Â What is wrong with America? Â Young people are committing suicide in record numbers. 3,000 lost their lives to gun violence, while other watched in panic, suffering long after the violence washes over them. Â Then look at the TV. Â Guns, guns, guns. Â Then tWitch/Boss shoots himself in the head at the age of 40 leaving 3 stunning children fatherless. Â WHY???
I guess if I knew the answer I would know the answer. Â I don't. Â I worry about a person last week that my team rescued from throwing himself in front of the subway. Â I worry about the girl going up on her meds and getting activated. Â I worry about the guy who mixes every substance and expects to wake up and go to work the next day un-phased. Â I worry about the teenager whose parents don't believe in medication even though she's had depression symptoms for over one year. Â I worry for the losses stacking up on kids too young. Â What will this mean for future generations? Â
I am parent-less now. Â It's sometimes exuberant not to have to check in or check out. Â But my assumptions from childhood were so naive. Â That people would stick around. Â That people would have my back. Â That I would know love and security; adventure and risk. Â Not meant to be. Â I sacrificed for my family and I asked for little in return. Â Two summers ago I found an Airbnb cabin in upstate New York to visit. Â You could walk out to tiny pond/lake and swim around it, come back, hang out, and then go back in again. Â That was my sanctuary. Â I went three times during the pandemic. Â The only problem was a boom-boom explosive noise in the distance that the dog made clear was not for him. Â Otherwise, a perfect idyll. Â A time to do nothing. Â
All we can do is carry on. Â Let the memories of your people near and far and gone carry you through all your days with the light of Hanukkah. Â May the glowing candles remind you of your grandmother Rose, who cherished you. Â Who created you. Â Who lives in you.